Where I thought I'd be

I never want to feel the pain
of being left out.
I never want to feel the blush of my skin
when I say that I regret things.
The ways things were,
I never thought I'd be where I am
Careless footsteps in reckless places
Dried tears and empty heart
Fears and blessings all together.
It makes for a cold night and endless wishing
to be where I thought I'd be.
Essences of others happy and free,
Never wanting the act of jealousy.
Never wishing the downfall
Downfall of a broken bruised and battered heart.
Give me the chance, O Night
To disappear.
Give me the chance, O Stars,
to glaze upon you just once more.
Give me a chance, my heart,
to put everything inside to right.
The light comes after the dark to chase it away, unearths the heavens.