Fat.

This is one word to describe me. I don't say this to belittle me , l say this because it is the truth . l currently weigh 215.8 pounds (I weighed myself today) and that's just wearing my underclothes.
And as I write this at 12:15 in the morning, I feel a sense of guilt. I cant blame this on someone else. I CANT. I am the one who feeds myself. I am the one who makes the bad choices that I make concerning my food intake and my exercise choices. This must change. I dont want to be fat anymore. I dont want to be unhealthy anymore.